The Blue Guru

So today is Friday,obviously.I’ve recently befriended one of the guys who kept sneaking glances at me in my class. =)We finally introduced ourselves to each other and this may possibly be the greatest times I decided to be forward.Started out when I was wandering the hallways at lunch time and we finally met each other outside with one of my Aussie pals.Both like to play hacky sack,only one is the most passionate about it.Possibly the best hacky sack player in the school I attend,I might have him teach me how to play.Over the past week we started writing notes and letters to each other finding odd ways to get them to another without coming off as suspicious.He’s an artist so he uses the pencil sharpener a lot so I usually leave the notes by the pencil sharpener.We called each other yesterday after exchanging digits and we ended up talking for hours.We called each other somewhere at 5pm and by the time we got off the sky was dark and it was almost time for bed.Ever since then we talk to each other daily somewhere at 5ish.After being walked to my bike with him accompanying  me after school,we told each other we would put in a call and we’d see each other later.Doing my usual thing when I get home,I toss off my backpack and other bag and usually walk the Weasel Mutt today was a little different and made me appreciate my life more and hate people who drives while texting and talking on their cellphones even more.I have a little intersection that looks like a + before my house,me and my Weasel Mutt stopped from our sprinting at the cross walk and this lady who was on her cellphone waved at me to go ahead and cross so me and my Weasel Mutt did,next thing I know she’s excelerating and her bumper is seconds away from my Weasel Mutt and my leg,just when I thought it was all over she stopped just as abruptly leaving me gasping for air and instantly the little portal that opened up in front of me of my life flashing before my eyes,vanished just as quickly as it had appeared.I yelled some remark about how idiotic it was for people to drive with cellphones and hurried across the other side where I passed a black suv with two guys in the front seat looking stoned and they kept calling me over calling me “babe” I just kept walking to get back to the safety of the house.I decided to take a nap and wake up at 5.After waking up a little more energized I called the guy(Ira) and we talked for a little while getting a few laughs and snickers here and there and he randomly announced he had tickets to a concert and asked if I wanted to come along.So I agreed and we met up at what looked like a mini tavern for young adults we sat or stood next to each other most of the time kinda keeping close to maintain body heat(it was cold in the building)and I’ve never felt so alive once the music started playing.I felt the music make its way into my feet all the way to my chest and become one with my heartbeat and spine.After taking a break and walking a few blocks to get some tea we sipped on that while we talked and we begin to feel a little more sleepy.Overall the music was great,I recorded all the bands to the notepad on my cellphone so I could look them up later,Listening to one of them right now as I type this. =)We ended the night with a warm hug grins and promises to call each other the next day.It was great even though it was 11ish when I got back home.I remember my mom telling me how great concerts and raves are but,you truly have no idea until you are there physically.It was wonderful,the music,the atmosphere,sitting close to someone you really enjoy being with,the spotlights casting halo’s and a outer glow on each of the band members bodies.

On another note I may be taking the spring break early,Might Be,I’m going to head down to Twin Falls of Idaho and stay a week with my cousin and have fun with him.We miss each other dearly and miss making crazy last minute decision shopping trips for Dr.Pepper and Swedish Fish among other things.I remember this one time on a Saturday we decided to walk 8 blocks to get to a Smith’s Grocery Store just to get the cheapest deal on Dr.Pepper and a package of Sour Patch Kids.It rained like there was no tomorrow that day,Noah would have never been criticized if he was still alive and built the Ark that day.With our clothes drenched and cars driving past us in these huge swimming pools that were in the streets,we became even more drenched.We decided that next time we could just float in the gutter with an inner tube and a sail,thats how much water was in the gutter.Enough for an inner tube and to support the weight of two people. =)

Over the past few months I’ve changed.I’ve went from anti social to social butterfly.From neutral to always happy and upbeat.I’m not particularly religious but I decided to attend a bible meet Tuesday during lunch,I may do it again.Putting aside all the hypocrisy,I can see a lot of good points and awesome philosophy,not all of it I agree to,but I’m taking clippings of philosophy that makes sense or I can particularly attach myself to.I’ve also taken a recent interest in Buddhism,I currently carry two books on the subject in my backpack.My grades are doing swell,as I balance the tasks of being social,maintaining good grades,a healthy lifestyle and more. I’m also learning Italian next in line will be German and more.I’m trying to connect with the Italian in me and thats kinda proving a little challenging,theres hardly any books on the subject.I may try out for soccer,but we’ll have to see. =)

That’s an update of some of the things that have been going on.Life is good.

The Blue Guru

I’ve effectively managed to keep my grades up into the Straight a column.Something I’m always happy about.The ultimate reward that pays off for my hard work and the dedication I put into my work and studies.In two days I had to memorize the United States.I passed that test and was the only one in the class to have passed that test.I enjoy all of my classes,each of them are awesome in their own way I thought about getting out of US history but decided against it when I realized the teacher who may come off as cocky to some,is still pretty awesome.

Biology-Is pretty neat because I enjoy science and the things that go along with it,Ive noticed that I kinda dread it though with as many pointless experiments we do.The teacher that I have in this class is attending college while teaching the class,shes a very hip perky chick.The other kids make fun of her for being so enthusiastic,I can understand in my own way and sympathize with her.I offer to her the best of encouragement I can muster.

Health II-The first time I shook hands with the teacher and introduced myself as the new student I knew from his amusing smile that he’d be interesting and that the school year would be fun in his class.He hasn’t proved me wrong yet.I think this teacher has ADHD or something,either way I don’t want him to take medication or try to “cure”it.I adore this teacher for his interesting ways of teaching and entertaining himself and the class while he teaches valuable lessons in life.Anyone that can do this is talented indeed and very special.

Lunch-I spend my time either in the library researching and minding my own business while I listen to music,if not in the Algebra classroom reading and eating in there.The hallways and lunch room is too hectic for my tastes,crowds are draining to my energy and patience.

Algebra-Due to the moving and everything I’ve been through I’m not talented or skilled in the mathematics department,however this classroom and teacher makes me look better than I really am.Things and concepts I never understood before(Why do we have to do it this way?Why cant I do it this way?)are starting to click now.I look forward to this class even more so than I use to.That and I’m seated with two stoners who usually come to class stoned and tripping out.It’s obvious and I think the teacher is use to it.They are a source of my amusement,especially when they start tripping out.Recently they have made an oath to get me high one day and at least get me to smoke a cancer stick,just one.Apparently cancer sticks are not addicting if you have just one.I beg to differ this is where you’d insert the “cancer sticks are like potato chips,once you have one you have to have more”quote.

US History-Also amusing because of the cockiness of the teacher we need more teachers like him.He just somehow makes this class interesting  and fun to come to.

With moving and a new year comes new goals or previous goals I couldn’t complete before.

The following changes fit under this theme.

I now run 4 times a day for 70 minutes with my Weasel Mutt.

I get up at 5 am and get to school at 5:39+ with two hours to spare.Of course I walk to school.

I’m more organized than I use to be.

I’m going to become a vegetarian soon.After the realization a few nights ago and deep and constant thought I realized that I didn’t have all my health problems before I was a vegetarian,I would like to believe that my body is telling me I effed up and I have the power to change that.

Depending on how well I feel after running a while,I may try out for soccer.Who knows?

I fell in love.(Kinda odd seeing that in words,them are always dodgy feelings to me,emotions in general and things that go along with emotions)

I now have a back up plan should I not make it into Veterinary school(highly competitive) the first six times.I intend to do four years of college and two years of veterinary school if possible.But if I can’t get into veterinary school I’ll turn my focus onto Human Medicine.It makes me feel more secure and calm knowing that I have a reasonable almost fool proof back up plan.

I’d like to try and make a lasting impression and difference on that special person.

That is all for now until I feel inspired to write again.

Signed

The Blue Guru

Finally! After being offline for a month in a half and fighting with Qwest we finally went with Clearwire which has been great so far,though its been two in a half days.

I’ve come back to hell,my email in boxes are full with each totaling in at least 40 emails for each email address.

I reviewed a few of my friends blogs and wasn’t to pleased at what I found,first negative of the day.Life goes on.

My birthday was the twelve of this month and that went fine,came home to a vase of flowers on my night stand,a 4 pack of blueberry muffins,we went out to Carls Jr,not my cup of tea.At least the salad was decent,but it also has a fast food taste to it along with the supposedly long prized cookie dough shake,which was crap as well.The very begining of my birthday was ho hum,I get up at 5 each morning and walk to school at 6 usually without breakfast so its no wonder.With an hour to spare between class time I have time to study,time to read and listen to music or do whatever the hell I like.It’s an interesting feeling to come early to school and see that the sky is still dark and the sun is barely rising,but the hallways are empty most classroom lights are off and I am the only one walking the school grounds except for a teacher every now and then.A few minutes into sitting down at my desk and enjoying the darkness on my side of the room while reading my cellphone vibrated against my thigh and though I was puzzled I pulled the cellphone out and found that I had recieved a text message from a buddy of mine who I’ve recently just met.”Happy Birthday!” among some other things was what the text read.I’m not an emotional person and nor is it easy for me to cry but I ended up wiping a couple tears away from my eyes.

Said person has regularly text messaged me,I’ve felt bad not having a way of responding.Texting is not part of my plan,and I can only make calls after 9pm which is 1am or 2am for most.Screw that.

When I moved here I decided I want to transfer back to highschool.The homeschooling for me was not convienant,I could not raise my hand and ask my teacher for help or what the hell he or she was on.Most people hear or see homeschooling and think “Cool! I want to do it!I could just stay home all day,do homework in my pajamas or nothing at all while I smoke weed!”Alright some teenagers don’t smoke week or don’t smoke anything at all,but the vast majority of people I do see,do.This isn’t the point,the point is the person probably has no idea what they’d be getting themselves into.Advertising companies frequently use this framework to target young viewers.I’ve seen a few commercials that show teenagers wearing pajamas and looking all enthusiastic about doing school work with big bold crazy looking text that says “It’s So Easy!”It’s not easy,in fact homeschooling is more challenging than public school itself.You still have the due dates but putting that aside,you cannot easily ask for a teachers assistance on a assignment as easily as you could raising your hand in the classroom.Another thing that is commonly misplaced and misunderstood about homeschooling is that some people just dont seem to understand that you need more self discipline for homeschooling than a public school.For me,I like it when people aren’t exactly nagging on me but constantly remind me “Hey you have this assignment due this day and we’re taking a quiz this day”with homeschooling you only get emails or maybe if your teacher really cares and has the ability to do so,he or she may call and bug the hell out of you and perhaps wont even stay on topic.

My reason for transferring to a public school was to pull myself out of a potential hole that was starting to look something from Star Trek.Due to depression becoming apart of my life,I don’t want to go down that route again.I may not be able to stop the depression but I do have the ability to see the road ahead of me if just by a little and see what consequences Id pay if I suddenly lost all motivation and stopped caring.It’s not so bad here at the public school,2 weeks into the school,Ive already been recognized and have already had a certificate handed to me due to my hard work.I’ve also found my sources of amusement.I haven’t made any “friends” but that is not what I’m after,I’m after an education and trying to catch all my credits up again.I think the word “friends”is misleading anyways.

Today is the last day of me being on the internet for a little bit.I’m in the process of moving to Bend of Oregon.

As my life is currently a mess I intend to fix it when I get down to Bend.This means applying for several jobs and volunteering at the animal shelters,and local libraries.I may even go back into running them marathons for causes such as cancer and so on.

I’ll also be going back to public school.Hopefully all goes swell there.

Rest assured that when I return I will have pictures,none of me of course. ^^ But some of Lincoln City and on our way to Bend. =)

I stumbled upon Imeem once upon a time when I was looking for a free music listening group.Imeem back then was a dream come true.It lasted for a year when finally I went to log in one day and I got a webpage saying that Imeem had decided to join up with Myspace,what did this mean?this meant taking everyones playlists and transfering them to Myspace.There were a few reasons I didnt like this idea.

• I had chose Imeem because it WASNT Myspace.
• What was the likely hood that all my music would get safely transferred to Myspace,I don’t listen to everyday music and artists.Some you probably never heard of.
• Of course I would have to create another account for Myspace,and Id be giving them what they want.

Them are all the cons,there were no pros.

Today I was informed by a friend of mine that Imeem was apparently back up and running-cough- I mean Myspace.I was overjoyed but got this sick feeling in my stomach as my friend told me have her music was gone.I went to the page and I’m met with this.

They didn’t try hard enough.Of course I took that message with a grain of salt,but I still cringing,when I finally accessed my playlists I was disapointed.I have at least 4o different playlists,under Imeem and I now have 10 with 1-19 songs in each depending on what band it is.So Ive lost all my music,I’m kicking myself in the ass now for not taking the time to write down all the artists and songs in a binder or notebook.

I have no idea what the hell happened I was just browsing some lyrics for one of my favorite bands and the next thing I know I get all these pop ups.

“Your Firewall Has Been Terminated”

“Another computer has remote access to your computer (insert IP Adress here)

“Youtube has been shown to harm your computer”(I have know idea where the hell that one came from)

“You have a hundred infections,click here to fix them!”

So immediately the hairs on the back of my neck stood up,I have never ever experienced anything this bad before,and I’ve dealt with alot of  viruses and everything that has to do with them and the people whom are behind them.That’s fine and dandy right?

No it’s not alright,Chrome completely shut down on me without my permission and I get reshuffled back to my desktop.Which use to be a wicked Kelpie picture(google Kelpie legend/mythology if you don’t know what a Kelpie is)The wallpaper was now a bright fugly green with this black banner in the middle that told me”Your system has stopped running your computer is infected!”The banner was illy made,and bogus.I managed to get firefox open and the such and went to look for ideas on how to remove Total Security.Some ideas were valid,others were useless.Such as the “Use task manager to kill it!”Guess what,Once you have Total Security on your computer,it won’t let you run anything potentially good for fighting or removing Total Security.That includes task manager.You’re SOL.After trying to figure out how to remove it for a total of five hours,I finally figured what the hell.Let the detachment procces begin,so I can detach myself from all of my files and pretend they mean nothing to me.I decided to try a system restore.Some people had mentioned that system restore would crash your computer,so I wouldn’t have been surprised.To my amazement everything has been restored to its previous state.The only downside that I can live with is that my Kelpie now looks like a elongated HotDogHorse.

So like the title says,you owe me Total Security